can't feel, can't find

it has been years since my heart beat skip a beat. it been years since i really feel for someone.

And i did really throw my heart into the deep blue ocean whereby i can't find it myself. It a problem with me i believe, everyone said that too.

There's gers that i take a 2nd look but it just plain admiring.

friend who wish to hook me up with other gers and i appreciate that but i do not have the confidence if i can find back the heart that was once lost.

It was a heartless event over my last breakup, althought i was sad but not to that extreme infact i was near to feelingless only that one moment of sadness that all.

Maybe someone found my heart in the deep blue ocean hid it somewhere far in an no's man island never to be dig out.

i don't believe in fate, as fate was created by human being. People told me i have not met my miss right but if i don't believe in fate, i think i never meet one.

as for now i keep searching but taking a step at a time. i may yearn to see someone but that does not mean that i like her, it still end up being just admiring.